A Poem on Suicide

In the silence and darkness of the night I became lost in my own thoughts,

My soul was in pain and my mind kept wondering if there is hope for a better tomorrow,

I became frightened to face the world anymore and did not want to live a second any longer,

Drowned in my own sorrows I had found refuge in drinking alcohol and smoking cigar,

The world was no longer friendlier and tears were flowing freely from my eyes,

The weight of darkness in my soul was too much to bear I no longer had peace of mind,

No one seemed to care the only thing I wanted was to vanish from the face of the earth,

Many questions crossed my mind but I never had an answer or a clue to any of them,

Lost in confusion there seemed to be no way out even when my heart ached to be loved,

I had been shoved aside and voices in my mind were screaming and shouting for attention,

I began asking myself where I would find peace, for I was entangled in the depths of despair,

Tears of sadness were staining my face and blurring my vision yet my heart yearned for happiness,

In this battle I was there alone to fight for there was no one to stand with me and makes things right,

There was no light to shine and bring forth a new day and I could not find any hope that lies within,

My strength had left me and my hands were shaking afraid of the darkness of the night,

I could not hold tight and tell my loved ones how much I cherished and loved them,

The world was no longer the comfortable home I wished to live in,

My life was no longer worth living and everything I had done was on a downfall,

Pain was hovering over me like a heavy cloud about to send rain into the earth,

Friends had deserted me laughter had left me and I could no longer find pleasure in socializing,

In my anxious mind suicide seemed the only escape, a way to end my pain and sorrow,

The way of the grave seemed the only viable option to take and it was opening up and welcoming me,

There on the other side I could finally breathe some fresh air and be relieved from pain and hatred,

I was ready and looking forward to taking my life and putting an end to my misery,

These were the final moments of my life I was lonely and sad with no one to hold my hand and lift me,

The demons were stretching their claws and holding my mind at ransom I could no longer think straight,

 Prepared to take my final step I took a pen and paper and wrote down what would be done to my body,

I never wanted normal burial but to be thrown away to be alone in the bush just like the way I lived,

But still in that dark room a whisper came to my ear, a voice of reason that startled me to my senses,

In that confusion a ray of hope pierced my heart I could feel love and peace that knows no bounds,

Even when the sorrow had engulfed me a voice reached out to tell me that I am precious and loved,

In that emptiness as I contemplated to jump over the cliff because of unbearable pain I felt remorseful,

The voice kept on reaching out and encouraging me to stand for someone was there to fight by my side,

That moment I knew I was not alone and would never be but someone was there to hold my hand again,

So I took a step back from my evil thoughts and decided to face the challenges that were ahead bravely,

For now my strength was back and my hope was renewed nothing else would matter,

I realized that suicide would not solve any of my problems at hand even the challenges of the future,

But would hurt those I leave behind and create wounds in their hearts which will never heal,

They will become a laughing stock in the community and everyone will be wary of them,

Was that the kind of life I would want my loved ones to live being rejected by everyone they meet?

There was still a chance for me to make things right and heal the hearts I had broken,

I was ready to fight with all my might even when my soul felt alone like it had been sold,

The pain I was feeling was temporary and I would emerge victorious on the side of the tunnel,

There were those who cherished me yet I had not given them a chance to show me their love,

My hands trembled at the thought of this and the pen and paper fell down from my grip,

I realized I was fooling myself for suicide was not a solution to problems in life but an act of cowardice,

There was beauty existing in the world and a never ending grace that we are not even aware of,

The only gift to the universe being able to embrace the world come what may and learn to live happily,

I stood up and went to my loved ones to show them how much I cherish the moments I have with them,

They were my friends and a wall that shuts me out from facing the harshness of the world,

I was ready to share my sorrows and joy with them for united there was no task we couldn’t accomplish,

Thoughts of despair were no longer in my mind but thoughts of hope, love and peace,

A lesson I had learnt that we draw strength in our numbers and the love and joy we share together,

No one can face the world alone so we need one other in the journey of life for companionship,

Everyone we meet in life is fighting a battle in their mind we should be ready to answer the call of help,

When the going gets tough it is good to ask for help and save a life for suicide is not the answer.