My Loneliness

Looking up at the scorching sun my face could not fathom its brightness,

My body was weak and could not take in the heat, yet I strived to keep moving,

I became weary with each step I took; my strides would falter my body swaying,

A long way I had come but a distance I still had to cover; destination was not on sight,

My life had taken a turn for the worse when everything seemed well,

Friends I had lost, foes encircling me I didn’t have a peace of mind,

My progress had been halted and my prosperity derailed,

My world was crumbling down I had to find a place of hope,

Sitting in solitude I had learned my lessons, in that emptiness I had known the way of the world,

The world moves with you only because you got something to give,

When your pockets dry up your friends turn into your foes,

Your strength disappears your soul is drained to the core,

Like a deranged man your mind is deprived of sense and morality,

With no one to hold your hand you become like a naked king in his own kingdom,

The world moves on and you sit on your track waiting for your fate,

The odds are against you and you have no more cards to play against life,

These lessons made me want to run as far as my feeble legs could take me,

With hope that the winds of blessings will blow my way on the other side,

But woe unto me I was to taste more of bitterness life had to offer me,

Everyone I met would notice I was not myself and my mind was at a distant place,

As a traveler who lays his head anywhere he finds a space whenever the night falls,

I became a sojourner amidst my own people not knowing where I belonged,

The paths to success became narrow while men with compassion were in short supply,

During the day I felt so forlorn while nights became cold and empty except for the moonlight,

My mornings were no longer filled with joy even with melodious chirps of the birds,

When noon time came I would sit alone at the village square deep in thought,

No soul to converse with and no friend to share my pain with only trees would be my companions,

A deserted place I would watch birds flying only walking back to my hut when sun sets down,

At nightfall the lamp once a source of bright light could not illuminate the whole room,

After having an evening meal I would grope my way into my bed because the room was dark,

With no sleep forthcoming I would comfort my mind with good memories and hope for a better future,

The emptiness of the room becomes a weight to my soul, sending chillness to my spine leaving me cold,

My heart is in pain, my soul is barren I cannot send out a smile into the world anymore,

The pain I feel cannot go away even when I try to fill up the void around my abode with joy,

On the other side I can hear sounds of laughter and joy proofing a sign of life out there,

The echoes of laughter travel through the winds to my ears making my soul yearn for happiness,

I still hold onto hope that someday, maybe soon my heart will find someone to make it smile again,

That I will rest from all the bitterness I feel and loneliness which has engulfed my life,

That the world will gift me someone I can have a deeper connection with and share the happiness,

No more do I want to be defined by my solitude but friendship and companionship,

This loneliness has been my companion for long spending my days away from those I love,

In the expansive world of friendship, I have stood alone against the challenges of life,

Only the moon and stars comfort me at night while birds keep me company during the day,

All these times I have yearned for a hand to hold me for my burden is too heavy to bear,

From the setting of the sun till the morning light the stillness of the room surrounds me,

Amidst that silence I ponder about my life and the never ending cycle of sorrow and pain,

Thinking of the roads I have travelled, the paths I have walked wondering if am loved by the world,

The struggles I have encountered, the mistakes I have made and the lessons that I have learned,

My soul is like a foundation stone a reminder of untold stories of solitude and sadness,

In the vastness of the world I have found myself holding onto my loneliness,

Yearning for peace and comfort is my soul my heart aches for joy and happiness which eludes me,

Only the whispering of the wind and rustling of the trees calms me as I breathe the soothing breeze,

There are times I feel alone and feeble yet I still keep going shaking off the shackles of the past,

Even while loneliness becomes my constant companion the universe offers me solace,

The wonders of the world fill my soul; stars in the firmament embrace me and shore up my hopes,

Looking back my footsteps remind me of the past but my eyes seek fortunes of the future,

My loneliness cannot determine my future but will be part of my story,

The end will be better than my beginning for I will not give up hope,

Life has a lot to offer for the world is a playing field with enough for everyone,

To savor the delicacies of the world   one needs a plan and patience,

My solitude may seem desolate and my state now may look lonely,

My existence may seem devoid of company while my mind lost in deep thoughts,

But in the depths of my world my strength is refined once more and my hope renewed,

I am content in my solitary state for there is beauty and peace I create in the quietness of my world.